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07:55 am: Changes.
After next week, I won't be doing a weekly comic for gURL.com anymore. It pains me to do it, but financial difficulties, especially those generated by my jaw and self-employment taxes, make it nigh on impossible to live my dream anymore.

It's a new life. I loved making comics for a living, but it was just too hard to keep making them when I was constantly worried about my security. I hope you can understand. Thank you for reading as long as you have. You made me feel like a star, no matter how small or how briefly, but a star nonetheless. I thank you.

Sometime mid-May I hope to start doing bi-monthly comic for gURL. I have to finish my Rachel-Sparrow storyline. I was going in a particular direction with it, and I don't like leaving loose strings hanging. Rachel's got a love interest, and we finally know that Sparrow isn't just a bitch but has horribly low self-esteem. There is so much left unsaid!

If you donated money to help with my jaw and want to retract your offer, I understand. I won't be self-employed much longer, and if you feel cheated that your donation is no longer supporting a struggling comicker's quest for a straight jaw but now just a struggling young person's quest for said jaw, I will understand. Drop me a note, and I can refund your donation with the click.

What makes me feel most terrible is that I get all these emails from girls telling me that I've inspired them to make comics and that I've shown them that they can make their dreams a reality. I feel like I've let them down. I'm so sorry. You should not give up making comics. I will not. The world may not be ready to support many full-time chick comickers, but it's close. Please do not give up on your dreams

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I had actually started investigating getting a real job before Joe proposed, so this has nothing to do with my future wedding. Like I said, it's all finances. At the end of the year, I just could not make the numbers work. So I will no longer be the girl who makes comics for a living. Now I will be the girl who designs sites/graphics and does comics as a hobby.

But I try to look on the bright side. You can't make comics about life unless you've lived, and at least now I'll have a solid hobby instead of "being my job". And once I'm in Raleigh, I can start getting my jaw fixed. I'm really excited about that, of course.

I spent most of this week in Raleigh, job hunting and moving stuff in. I should be fully moved-in by the 7th of April. It will be a strange new land, far from the bosom of my mountains, far from my dog and my mother and my friends. It will be very scary and probably lonely, even though I'll have Joe. (You wouldn't happen to live in Raleigh, would you?)

Men complicate everything. I had a nice job lined up here until he proposed! Then I had to carefully weigh my options. Stay, wait, go? In the end I chose to move to Raleigh because there are more design jobs and more opportunities for education and advancement there. Unfortunately, it's also hot and a commuter community, which means I'll have to drive a lot. I dislike that immensely. I hate cars, I hate driving. It's like throwing out an hour of your life every time you get in one. I will need many books on cassette tape (not CD, my car is from 1995, yo) to console me.

But I hope to move closer to where Il work so I might not have to commute. And some day I may even have a motorcycle again, to further help with gas.

So that's it. I feel like it's the end of an era. I kept it weekly for one year and five months. It's been so much fun. I already miss it.

Thank you very much. For everything.

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From:tscheese
Date:March 29th, 2008 12:31 pm (UTC)
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What makes me feel most terrible is that I get all these emails from girls telling me that I've inspired them to make comics and that I've shown them that they can make their dreams a reality.


Hi! I'm one of those.

I had been doing half-assed webcomics before I encountered your stuff, but it wasn't until I got my first copy of Crow Princess that I realized...hey, if I tighten up my artwork and practicepracticepractice, I could put something out in print too. You have been an incredible inspiration.

Just because you're not doing it full-time anymore doesn't mean that you've quit or let us down. Anyone who's ever seriously thought about making comics for money knows that it's not easy. Hell, I knew that when I was like 13 and I got my first copy of How to Draw Comics the Marvel Way.

I feel like I was kinda lucky to be in the right time and place to follow your adventures as you did comics for a living. Like seeing how you responded to challenges and triumphs, how you chronicled them in your work, buying your books and pins and minis...It's been immensely satisfying to see what you were able to do. Don't feel too down about it.

You done good.
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From:crowhen
Date:March 29th, 2008 01:26 pm (UTC)
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Awww, thankee kindly, ma'am.
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 29th, 2008 01:27 pm (UTC)
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Wow. I just discovered your comics yesterday. Well, good luck with everything! Your comics are really great. I'll be looking for this apparent bi-monthly one at gURL.com.
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From:jinnayah
Date:March 29th, 2008 02:08 pm (UTC)
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I thought you might be looking at the time you started your donation drive, since you talked about not starting the procedure until you knew where you'd be living, and that usually means job search. Personally, I'm even more impressed with people who can keep doing something like a web comic while working a full-time job. Good luck with the bi-monthly, and I hope you like your new job and new town! Maybe the local library will have good books on tape in their collection.
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From:dianamcqueen
Date:March 29th, 2008 02:34 pm (UTC)
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Never feel bad for trying to get your world in order.
"Now I will be the girl who designs sites/graphics and does comics as a hobby."
Careful, that's what I am, and after I got 'full time serious job' my work flow has been less than adequate. It's a struggle, but you seem more fluid in your work habits, I hope we see much more from you!

Good luck and have a wonderful wedding and married life :3
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From:miss_sigma
Date:March 29th, 2008 02:36 pm (UTC)
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You shouldn't feel bad for admitting you need a job more than making comics. The great thing about dreams is, they can wait a little, and be fulfilled bit by bit. Good luck with your new job, town and fiancé.
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From:mckenzee
Date:March 29th, 2008 02:52 pm (UTC)
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I'm 45 minutes from Raleigh, visit there often. I'll make sure you and Joe get invited to the coolest parties when I'm in town.
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From:crowhen
Date:March 29th, 2008 02:54 pm (UTC)
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That's very kind of you. Thanks, McKenzee :)
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From:ammitnox
Date:March 29th, 2008 02:53 pm (UTC)
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A lot of comickers also have day jobs. It won't make you not-a-comicker, I promise. :)
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 29th, 2008 03:17 pm (UTC)

Rachel!!

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Wow, I remember I started reading your comics since you started. (the website). It will be very hard, because I was used to reading your comics.. oh. Don't be sad, life is ever-changing, this is an experience that will make you gain something one way or another. I sincerly hope everything in your life goes well, and hopefully, in the future, Rachel the Great will be back with her antics!
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From:lokidiscordia
Date:March 29th, 2008 04:32 pm (UTC)
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might i suggest that you seek employment with a major comics company.
better to rent out your soul than to sell it .
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From:thedalaimama
Date:March 29th, 2008 04:33 pm (UTC)

Jaw

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I don't see why job hunting in a new place suddenly makes the need for help with the jaw go away. Even if you get a job with insurance, it won't kick in for a while, and you need to start the procedure very soon. Wait until you find out if insurance will cover any of it or will deny it as pre-existing. You are an honest and decent person. If you later find out that you can make this whole 15-25 grand thing work on only your own resources, then worry about refunds or whatever. We just want you fixed.

I just didn't get the leap of logic there. And, no..... you are not done making comics. It's a big part of who you are. We all know a "next one" is coming our way some day. Something to look forward to. Meanwhile, we love you!
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From:crowhen
Date:March 29th, 2008 06:00 pm (UTC)

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No leap of logic, I was just worried some people might not want to help me if I wasn't making comics anymore. I'm still poor as dirt and health insurance still does bupkis for me ;)
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From:savageknight
Date:March 29th, 2008 04:53 pm (UTC)
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Hey Rachel. A job, for the most part, is what you do - NOT who you are. Good luck with everything, balance what you can, and enjoy your "newfound hobby" :) As far as I'm concerned, you're still a "comicker in need" and no way would I ever request a refund! :)
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From:joamette
Date:March 29th, 2008 06:23 pm (UTC)
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Oh, Rachie. *hugs* I wish you all the best in whatever it is you end up doing at whatever point of your life you happen to be in, always. I have learned so much from you, and you've been a bigger influence on my life than you can ever imagine.

And I don't mean that your comics have been - I mean you, Rachel Nabors.
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From:the_s_guy
Date:March 29th, 2008 06:58 pm (UTC)
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Hey, we can still hope - there are plenty of artists who took financial breaks, sometimes for decades :)

But seriously, thanks for everything you've done, and all the best for whatever lies ahead.
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From:crowhen
Date:March 29th, 2008 07:07 pm (UTC)
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Thank you :) I will keep trying, in my own way.
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From:falconwhitaker
Date:March 29th, 2008 08:57 pm (UTC)
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Oh Rachel, you're not giving up on the dream - you're just putting it on hold for a while. And your physical well-being (i.e. your jaw and keeping you out of poverty) is more important that our fleeting moments of pleasure. In fact, the less we are given, the sweeter it will be.

Don't feel as though you've let us down - you definitely haven't. *hugs*
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 29th, 2008 11:59 pm (UTC)

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I HATE this whole your leaving thing. I really looked forward to every Wednesday to read your comics. I LOVE them so much! It is an end of an era Rachel. For us mostly, at least. For you, it's the beginning of a new one. With Joe and stuff. I hope everything goes well for you. I really hope that I understood right and that someday you'll return to complete every Wednesday to millions again. Well...at least you'll still be making comics! =D I'm happy about that, at least. I just have one question though. How come Joe couldn't move in with you? Wouldn't that make everything easier for you both?
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From:crowhen
Date:March 30th, 2008 12:26 am (UTC)

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Ah-ha! I answered this question in a more recent post: http://crowhen.livejournal.com/145068.html

It's actually better if I moved. Hey, I'll e surrounded by other comickers, so I should stay inspired ;)
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 30th, 2008 09:03 am (UTC)
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I fully understand your situation. Good luck!
Marco M. (http://www.mellart.com)
From:organic_cookie
Date:March 30th, 2008 04:30 pm (UTC)
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I find all the work you've done mighty admirable and while it didn't inspire me to make comics per se, it inspired me to doggedly pursue my art and improve my writing. (So, like comics but without combining the two in sequential panels.) You're proof that there is such a thing as a self-made young woman, and it's an incredible model for young people (male and female alike) to look up to.

By the by, I'm the NCSU student who sent you a Myspace message offering whatever help I can give.
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From:crowhen
Date:March 30th, 2008 05:01 pm (UTC)
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I would love to hang out with you when I get to Raleigh. Let's do lunch, dahlink!
From:(Anonymous)
Date:March 31st, 2008 02:38 pm (UTC)
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i already get comic cravings, now it's going to be even worse! lol. but your doing what's best for you so in a way im glad. good luck to you and Joe in your new life together.
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From:stoicnimwit
Date:April 2nd, 2008 12:10 pm (UTC)
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We're all rooting for you, Rachel! I've read your comics on gURL for years, but your health and livelihood is way more important than our selfish want for Rachel the Great every week :P

I feel for you with all the changed going on too *hug* I hope everything turns out for the best!
From:(Anonymous)
Date:April 4th, 2008 09:53 pm (UTC)
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Please, don't worry about not being the we-girl-nerds-can-do-anything role model anymore! Well, you always will be, but I understand why you are afraid you are letting some people down. I'm sure some will be let down, but that's their problem. The girls (and women) who follow your comics are the Strong, Sturdy and Smart type, and they should realize that even if the poster-child for women 'living the dream' steps down, it's her choice, and her life! We'd want the same for ourselves!

We also have to realize that if we want a role model, we should get up off our lazy bums and be one ourselves! You've inspired many and will continue to. Just be sure YOU remember your old dream, and everyone else will, too.

Thanks for everything!
From:(Anonymous)
Date:April 5th, 2008 12:08 pm (UTC)

SQUEEEE!!!!

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Don't feel bad Rachel. Things will work out!

BTW: The Squee is the Raleigh part! You will love it down here!! Be sure to hit up Southpoint in Durham and all the cool museums in Raleigh!!
From:(Anonymous)
Date:May 3rd, 2008 11:35 pm (UTC)

Rachel

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Hey Rach, I'm really sorry to hear you're leaving, but I have to say, I still admire you and thank you for the time you shared with us. You really helped me to follow my dreams and trust myself no matter what, and even if you're leaving us for a while, it doesn't mean you're leaving your dreams behind. Don't listen to the guys who say you are, there'll always be some who'll keep loyal to you. Thank you very much, your comix made me feel like i was not alone.
Olivia
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